The planning of my critical reflection

So the interviews and observations I have been conducting have been really interesting and I am enjoying discovering and reflecting on my findings. Already certain themes are immerging, but I am also seeing a huge variety in the different choreographic processes I am learning about. I am beginning to try and analyse why this is, but I still have two interviews to complete so I am having to be patient.

Two days ago I wrote a detailed plan of my critical reflection, breaking down each advised heading into sub headings. This has really helped my essays in the past, as it ensures you cover all areas, but have a well thought out and strong structured essay. I feel a lot better now that I have done this, as I have a clear direction as to where my essay is heading. In addition to this I am now able to start writing an introduction as well as begin to draft out some of the rest of the essay. 

When it comes to the literature I have struggled a bit to know how to incorporate it into my essay without the clear structure of my essay to be hugely complicated. I am aware how important it is that the literature supports and also challenges your findings and so it needs to be constantly inter- woven into the anaylsis. However, I also feel it is appropriate to have a subheading of literature within the essay in order to set it up clearly and to allow it to be a strong feature of the reflection. 

My next stage within this process is to finish the last interviews and then finish cross referencing the data! 

The slight feeling of panic...

So I have completed a couple of observations, have two more interviews scheduled and am just trying to arranged the final interview. I am still aiming to have all interviews and observations done by March but I am feeling a little impatient! I feel a massive desire to start pulling all my information together and start writing, but I know that I am not ready yet....

In terms of literature I have categorised it all into sections and have read up on it to the point where I now need to cross reference it against my own personal discoverings.

Reading up on the creative process, there are many websites and books which try to categorise the process into sections. This final module feels a process of creativity and discovering and yet trying to put all my feelings and thoughts into a specific boxes or categories just doesn't seem to be working! When it comes to choreography, I do usually go through a stage where my thoughts are whirring and not in any type of order. However I also trust they will come together naturally. I am hoping this will happen with my final module, but right now it just doesn't feel like it. 

It's quite interesting to feel the difference in how my brain works when it comes to creating choreography and creating my final module work. Right now I can't work out why there is a difference, expect that maybe when it comes to creating choreography, the journey is so personal that I have more control over the outcome. But with this module I am learning about so many different people and so many different sources that it is taking longer for me to process everything. 

I am trying to see this new feeling as a positive thing, as I am learning so much about myself from this entire process, as well as so much about my chosen topic. I just wanted to document this feeling as writing it down has ironically helped me to organise my thoughts!